SO happy :)

Alright! So! greatest weekend ever.

Saturday was b-e-a-utiful out and one of my best friends shannon and I had planned to hang out, which was awesome, so she came over, and then my friend adam calls up, and asked if we wanted to go the park with him a couple other of my friends and just have fun, cook hotdogs, nice summer day kinda thing. So OBViously we did haha I was really excited about the whole thing 1) Cause im just a tool like that and 2)!!! Shannon is one of my closest friends, and were alot alike, and just everytime we hang out its nothing but amazing. Adam and Chris are also really close friends of mine, and i love hanging out with them! Everytime im with these guys, i always feel so happy and relaxed and i dont feel like i hafta try and impress anyone or try and be something im not, i can just be myself, and they can be themselves, and we all just have fun. They also constantly make me laugh, which i love. so again, all awesome-ness. So when the oppertunity came to put the two together!!! +carson! WOO haha ps. carson is the greatest asian ever cause he listens to random amazing music and has his face on a t-shirt! =D SO ANYWAY, piont is, that's why I was so excited! So adam came to pick up me and shannon and we met chris and carson at the park hahaha and between almost forgetting a lighter, taking a year to get our "fire" able to cook hotdogs, not being able to turn them with anything but our fingers, and then loosing three after all the trouble it was quite the fail-tastic* day, but it was fun, it really was, the sun was out (for most of the time) and we were all in a good mood so yea haha and i played catch for the first time in YEARS :P imagine that. Shannon had to go home, but then after dropping her off the four of us still went for ice cream, which is ALWAYS a good topper after a nice day right?! of course :)
now. this is where it might not seem like the greatest weekend ever, but you'll see.
After calling it a night, carson drove me home, and for some reason, of which i still dont entirely understand, as soon as i got in my house and like, in my room and sat down, i just felt so miserable! I honestly felt so upset and sad about like so much. for no reason at all really. Now remember from previous blog the guy that im like hugely crushing on? now, he pops up in my mind, and obviously, i start to kinda worry about everything. So after ranting to the one and only, shannon (heart) i end up just saying screw it and im going to bed cause i couldnt handle it anymore. So i go to bed and my friend. friend-ish, trevor starts txting me and we start talking about the whole thing and how he thinks i should just tell him straight up, cas its just hurting me not saying anything, but i was saying how like, i was too afriad pretty much cause i didnt wana get rejected, cas i seriously thought that was gona happen. But he finally gets to me, and i drag myself out of bed at like 2 in the morning, i go to my computer log onto FACEBOOK! which yes i know is laaame! but to my defense it WAS 2 in the morning, so i didnt want to wake him and i knew i wouldnt have the guts still later if i was to wait to do it person. So i resorted to msging him on facebook lol plus that way i can think a little bit more about what im saying, not that i think i did much of that but yea. oh and i might as well give him a name right? probably be alot easier lol Jon. haha his name is Jon. :P
(I ramble way to much..)
So i send him this msg, saying i like him and all that jazz, but i was seriously so afriad that he wasnt gona like me. Just because, ANY previous expirience i've had, where i like someone like this, it just, it doesnt work out. Sure i've had boyfriends, who i liked and was really happy with none the less, but ya kno, when theres that person, that you just get so many butterflies looking at even?! i mean, did you read my last blog?! thats never worked out for me before. So this made me nervous as hell needless to say. I click send. and then sit there for about 5 mintues wishing there was a FML button to click.. there wasnt. so i went back to bed and laid there for like..a gooood..two hours maybe. just kinda laying there...effing my life. lmao. i finally fell asleep anyway
woke up in the morning, still thinking about it. I log onto msn, he's online, but no reply. however! i remember from when we first started talking, sommmeone, honestly, checks his fb like, once every two weeks or something haha so i kinda feel like an idiot, but theres NO WAY i can handle waiting around for dayyys to hear his reply. so of course. i txt him. something along the lines offf "hey uhm.. i kinda sent you a msg on facebook...the only reason im txting you telling you this is cause i know you dont check it often..so..yea" (i felt like such an idiot, chirst!!!!) so anyway, like i duno, half an hour or something after, i get a reply, and to my lovely suprise, HE LIKES ME! hahaha it pretty much made my day. havent been able, to stop smiling since. :)
so of course, were not dating yet or anything, which im totally fine with, we both dont wana jump into anything, and want to get to know eachother more, but it just made me really happy to know for sure that its not just me.
so happy! that i thought id share it with you :P
thats all i really have to say, now i just can't wait to hang out with him again :)